So, today is the first day in about a month that I have felt like I am fighting a losing battle. I have been on point with food and exercise and suddenly my body decides to retain a ridiculous amount of water pretty much OVERNIGHT. I am frustrated to say the least. How can I possibly continue to eat right and get to the gym everyday if my BODY is fighting my mind? My fiance says to make an appointment with the doctor; I am not sure what good that will really do. Honestly, he wants me to go to a doctor who uses mainstream and homeopathic treatments. I still think that the doctors think I am crazy.
I know my body. I see what is going on. One week out of the month, I am leaner looking and not retaining an ass load of water. I know I am losing too, but the scale has not budged since I started a month ago. I was in tears this morning and I am trying to choke back the tears as I type this now. I don't want to have my efforts go to waste. I know that internally I am doing my body good, but I want it to reflect externally too. Have I messed up my metabolism and hormones so much from the years of horrible eating, that my body is rebelling? Seriously, what do I have to do?
I am weighing all my food for the next week or so. I don't know what else I can do to change the way I look. I estimated my food, maybe I was still overeating? I have no idea. I don't know what to do. I want to crawl under a rock and hide.
One thing I do know, is regardless of what my body is deciding for me, I am not going to quit. I will win. I am not going to let this drag me down and knock me off my course. I have a serious goal in mind and I will get there no matter what I have to do.
"Don't dream it, be it."
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